Wednesday night
So i was at Skalitzer Strasse at a Couchsurfing gathering... Got to know some people, had some really interesting conversations going on but nothing caught my eye...
The last few days i was texting "Eliana" from the Sunday's Report a little bit back and forth, nothing out of the ordniary. And then i looked at Skype on my mobile and found something i would consider a Booty call..:
[11.05.2011 21:45:15] Eliana: i´m feelling lonely here....
[11.05.2011 21:49:14] Ceasar: Where are you right now? Wheres the bf?
[11.05.2011 21:49:25] Eliana: i´m at home
[11.05.2011 21:49:34] Eliana: David is at his place packing
so the conversation went back and forth because it looks weird when a male "friend" comes over to her place that late and stuff... so i did some push n pull until she gave me her adress. Immediately i got out of that gathering, jumped in the car and drove there, 15mins later there i was.
I went up there and there she was in her room. The room was pretty empty, you could tell that she just moved. So we started to talk about this and that.From the moment i came in there, there was heavy kinoing going on from her side, she didn't miss a chance to touch me.
She told me about a cruise she was on in January and told me about a guy she was totally into, italian, long hair, musician...you know the kind of i was talking about. And told me about how physically attracted she felt but refused in the final night of the trip, to follow him to his room, and she still can't get him out of her head. She didn't follow him because of Social Conditioning...She should've followed her inner self she said, and i agree'd. Now it's like an unfinished business she can't forget
We talked and talked, sometimes between our faces ther was like less than 10cm between them and i noticed that sometimes she looked at my lips...
That moment i thought..."dude she has a boyfriend..."...but apparently she loves to play with fire...
So when i listened to her i looked her in the eyes and started thinking about sex, on purpose... and trying to "push my thoughts" into her. And suddenly she was like, in the middle of the conversation " Stop it!" and i was like "What?! im just listening!" "Stop at me looking like this with those beautiful eyes..." and moved on talking, i repeated that several times and it just worked like a charm. (Confident girls RULE!)
After we were watching some YouTube video's she was like "i'm tired..." so i thought to myself "should i go?" when she finished her sentence ..."..with youtube" stood up and lay down on her bed...interesting...
So there i was sitting, torn about what should i do, i really genuinely connected with that girl...we had a lot in common...but should i be just like all opportunistic and fuck her or be a gentleman and refuse...So there i was sitting at her desk...clueless...
Eliana: What are you doing?
Ceasar: Struggling.
Eliana: With what?
Ceasar: With myself
Eliana: Why?
Ceasar: Because im feeling REALLY tempted...
Eliana: Tempted to do what?
Ceasar: You know exactly what so stop asking
silence...
my mind was RACING, what the fuck should i do...use her weak moment or be a gentleman?
So i took my chair and sat right next to her bed, she was looking at me with those shiny eyes.
Ceasar: I don't want to use your weak moment...I don't want you to do something you might regret.
i thought it's the right thing to do...honestly...
Eliana: but didn't you just tell me that when i am so physically attracted like i was to that musician-guy i should go for it?
She got me...half a year has passed and she was still not over this guy...because she had unfinished business...
So after a bit of talking...i joined her in the bed... she snuggled up to me and the way she was breathing was ridiculous...i had a direct response whereever i touched her...one thing lead to another...
After like...easily know an hour or so. I told her that we can stop, but she was like "I want you to finish too" but i told her that it won't work. (Ever since i broke up with my fiancée i can't orgasm...feels like a fucking grudge it was like that before my ex-fiancée and now it's the second time this is happening, the first lay wasn't blogged) And she was getting dry so i know it hurts her.
So we stopped, she was hugging me all the time. I'll never forget the glow in her eyes...even though it was dark...i could see how she watched my face...every inch she was scanning with her glowing eyes...And she just couldn't stop kissing me.
So at about 4:45am i got dressed, while i was dressing myself i examined her body...it was getting lighter outside so i could clearly see her silouette in front of the window...that really nice looking round brazilian booty...it looked awesome...so i left her place...after getting again showered with kisses and those shiny eyes...
I told her not to be too hard on herself because she just followed her instincts...(next time i'll use the word "heart" instead of instints as Rob (a fellow PUA and very good friend of mine) suggested)
And 6am she left for a weekend in some East-European city.
To be continued or not?...we'll see...
to be continued
* although i told that nothing will be censored here i did change the names, everything else is real...just the way it happened.
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